taking a dive head first into the suns rays

its so beautiful and tragic at the same time. your eyes reflect the reason why we are here today.
these storms i have building up inside of me. the earth quakes erupting in my stomach
the constant turn of this tornado driving my mind crazy
we fail to realize that there is so much beauty in this world. in everything.
we forget why we are alive.

when i die. the waves in my veins will rot out. water this earth back to life
we generate our earth.
why not grow more flowers? why not harvest the green in this earth. preserve water for health.
whatever breathes eventually dies.

and love...
where was it in this mix of hate? where was it when the bombs fell? when rome fell?
theres so many people on this earth. trembling to the sounds of music.
its the music that waters us back to life.
we remember love, in such an odd state of mind.
sometimes i forget about it. and im selfish for a moment
i feel helpless. lost. people look to me in crooked faces. another odd attempt for suffocation
all of the people that surround me. dont know me. they dont even bother to ask. or get to know me.
i live a thousand lives, and so many people walk in and out of it.
you really dont know life, till everything you have explodes, and is drowning in this sea we call sorrow.
i just need to be alone. but not alone with myself.

in the morning when the sun breaks over the horizon, and shines its rays into my eyes
i will close them because i cannot bare the sight of this light we have.
makes me think that birds are trying to fly closer to the sky every day.
and at night...
when my eyes are still closed during the day
i open them as the sun falls again below the horizon, and i see clearer for now.
i feel reborn. i cry.
and i know that the day has just passed and another one will begin.
but i cry again a little harder. because in some eyes the day was just like the one before.
if god would just give us some more time in the day.
id have the energy to stare at the sun in the morning and all day
i would go blind. but the sun will replace my heart.
sometimes this means more to others.
i just want to prove to god that i am trying to be a better person
so much love in me, just wanting to burst out. explode out of my chest.
and have it rain. the purist of all rain. it will fall hard
such a bad storm in me coming out for the day, leaving destruction of earth quakes all around.
this may cut up the earth, but it needs to be reborn. and it needs to be reborn some time.
lets build this together. in harmony. and in love. lets do this together. help me.

help me water this earth back to life.