Tuesday, April 28, 2009

THE RIOT

raise your torches, your bloody torches. lay out the fire in a straight line. we have come to the village to burn your words. we are coming to take you out. how many thoughts ran through your head of the same mistake over and over again? where has love turn too vengeance? you have choked out our words so we are spitting them out at you. "in this fatal frame i remembered them choking to death." so light these torches, raise them high. let them know that we are coming. we are humans perfecting the art of war, like a game of chess, only we are willing to destroy everything. take them all out, send out the queen to do the kings job. set out the armies to protect The Killers. hide the jokers for they know too much.
the biggest fear we have ever faced, is a war within a war itself. a war within its own country.
in chaos all you need is a match to start the fire, and the whole world is hooked.
this world will be finished and our bones will remain.

"to whom this may concern, we have tried to live on this righteous planet, but we have destroyed it. apparently this planet was a jail cell, and we were the inmates. somewhere along the line, we all went crazy. the innocence of this planet had nothing to do with these actions, but we brought them down with us anyways. label us 'The Killers'. hopefully you can do better then we did. this is yours, and it wasn't even ours to begin with. we were just guests in a jail cell, at least thats what some of us have turned it into." -Mankind.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

taking a dive head first into the suns rays

its so beautiful and tragic at the same time. your eyes reflect the reason why we are here today.
these storms i have building up inside of me. the earth quakes erupting in my stomach
the constant turn of this tornado driving my mind crazy
we fail to realize that there is so much beauty in this world. in everything.
we forget why we are alive.

when i die. the waves in my veins will rot out. water this earth back to life
we generate our earth.
why not grow more flowers? why not harvest the green in this earth. preserve water for health.
whatever breathes eventually dies.

and love...
where was it in this mix of hate? where was it when the bombs fell? when rome fell?
theres so many people on this earth. trembling to the sounds of music.
its the music that waters us back to life.
we remember love, in such an odd state of mind.
sometimes i forget about it. and im selfish for a moment
i feel helpless. lost. people look to me in crooked faces. another odd attempt for suffocation
all of the people that surround me. dont know me. they dont even bother to ask. or get to know me.
i live a thousand lives, and so many people walk in and out of it.
you really dont know life, till everything you have explodes, and is drowning in this sea we call sorrow.
i just need to be alone. but not alone with myself.

in the morning when the sun breaks over the horizon, and shines its rays into my eyes
i will close them because i cannot bare the sight of this light we have.
makes me think that birds are trying to fly closer to the sky every day.
and at night...
when my eyes are still closed during the day
i open them as the sun falls again below the horizon, and i see clearer for now.
i feel reborn. i cry.
and i know that the day has just passed and another one will begin.
but i cry again a little harder. because in some eyes the day was just like the one before.
if god would just give us some more time in the day.
id have the energy to stare at the sun in the morning and all day
i would go blind. but the sun will replace my heart.
sometimes this means more to others.
i just want to prove to god that i am trying to be a better person
so much love in me, just wanting to burst out. explode out of my chest.
and have it rain. the purist of all rain. it will fall hard
such a bad storm in me coming out for the day, leaving destruction of earth quakes all around.
this may cut up the earth, but it needs to be reborn. and it needs to be reborn some time.
lets build this together. in harmony. and in love. lets do this together. help me.

help me water this earth back to life.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

THE WARRIOR

everything we know has been kept a secret
tear these walls down, speak softly into my ear
we are here, forever till dawn
and life has made a mistake. a repeat for yesterday

so shut the gates. rebuild this fort. throw up the flag. the color flag
we have been over run
seal the gates board up the windows
we're being over run

now we're retreating they trap us in our seats with our eyes closed
we sing our last words
before all of this is lost burn that white flag called surrender
burn it to ashes, to ashes. burn it. to ashes, to ashes. burn it.

set our remains to the sky. call for back up. they have my hands tied behind my back
i wont surrender
they have my hands tied behind my back
i refuse to surrender

they break my thumbs, look away this is too much to bare.
they broke a few of my ribs, i refuse to crack
they stick my head in the socket. i see the light of day. "love is here"
they lock me in. "pain lets me know that im still alive."

captain, where are you now? i cant seem to hold my breath. captain our ship is sinking. our love is fleeing. O'Captain, these chains are so tight. O'Captain. i feel the angels light.

the devil is here, all red and gray, the devils are here. and i am not afraid.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

the thin red line

are you kind? have you found love? did you save the world? saved a life? have you ever imagine for a moment that all the righteous you do in this world will never come back for you? do you really think you wont have a chance to suffer?

the final battle through life is getting to the point of your death. but the war isnt over. do you imagine that this will be painless? your family is crying, but in their hearts they are cheering you on.

death comes with a smile. but never a handshake. nothing personal. its just business.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

flipsyde. i feel you.

[im not taking credit for this. these lyrics are by a rapper called flipsyde song called US history]

the songs bad ass so i thought id put the lyrics up.
their well said and amazing.


Hustlin's in my blood my father's name is Britain His history consisted of robbery killin' and pimpin Filthy rich and the biggest killer that you ever seen Once I'm older I'm takin' over ima be king I was locked up in jail when he got the new land Opened his cells I guess that's how the story began First mission was to clear it out and claim it as mine Indigenous people were peaceful it took no time Great grandmother Africa was blind and disabled Sons was traitors we played divide and conquer invaded Sold her children into slavery and profited quick Started makin' side deals and that's how I got rich Daddy Britain found out and tried to put me in check He don't understand I'm a man and I deserve some respect Tried to bring it to me but I play for keeps and I won Still my daddy but you ain't the only man with a gun More money More problems little brother is wild They call 'em The South he's country with a big ass mouth Tried to show 'em new business but he don't wanna change I love 'em but I knew eventually I'd blow out his brains I'm America!

[Chorus] You know you know God Bless America You know you know God Bless America You know you know God Bless

[Verse 2]Me and my daddy still cool and my uncles is with us France Russia and Italy and we all killas But it's this nigga named Germany that's out of control Rollin with Japan and Turkey and them niggas is bold Started fuckin' with my uncles and we all went to war Uncle France damn near died at the tip of his sword When the smoke cleared we won let 'em retreat Shoulda' killed 'em cause they knew they had us close to defeat Kicked it off again 20 years later it was on This time my uncle Italy traded and he was gone I was neutral when Japan hit me guess that he knew I aint gone' let my family fight without me jumpin' in too Woulda' lost if I didn't hit Germany's weapon supply Kamikaze Japanese was always ready to die Dropped atomic bomb let them niggas know that it's real Speak soft with a big stick do what I say or be killed I'm America!

[CHORUS] You know you know God Bless AmericaYou know you know God Bless America You know you know God Bless

[Verse 3]I'm racin' with my uncle Russia we the ones with the guns He supported the North so I rolled with South Vietnam Thought it would be easy but almost 60 thousand died They was harder than Korea so we ran for our lives It's a family called the Middle East and they got bread Sellin' oil they don't cut me in then off with their head I got a nephew named Israel that's right in the middle Pay his allowance as long as he can dance to my fiddle I had a patna' named Iraq gave 'em weapons and money Nigga started getting' power and he start actin' funny Saudi Arabia's cool gotta son Bin Laden I was trainin' his soldiers to go against the Russians and stop 'em Then he tried to say I need to take my soldiers and cut Gave 'em the finger that's when he flipped and blew my shit up I took it to 'em, and then I took it back to Iraq and if you ain't my blood brother you gonna be flat onyo' back The sons of Africa just invented this shit called rap Tellin' my secrets that's why I'm puttin' their heads on flat Built an empire quick and it might not last But I bet I go down in history as the one that smashed I'm America!

[Chorus] You know you know God Bless America You know you know God Bless America You know you know God Bless

Hustlin's in my blood my father's name is Britain Hustlin's in my blood my father's name is Britain The red the white the red the white the blue The red the white the red the white the blue

your life is boring. because you have nothing to life for. not even yourself.

OH shit! what time is it?

10:30? fuck i over slept...

let me think...

1. shower and get dressed
2. put clothes in the wash
3. eat breakfast
out the door by 1 the. latest.

is it sunny outside? it is! YES! wait... check the weather whats the temperature? 75?! windy? no wind! beautiful!
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im out the door, and in my shoes, their half torn, the concrete chewed up my deck but i can still surf the street. im sweaty but thats what my hat is for. im hot thats why im half clothed. the suns rays are on my back and the birds are flying over my head. with these headphones i have in my ears i block out all noise. i got my favorite beats bouncing in my head, and im focused on one thing. its 4 o'clock and i lost track of time, but thats ok i got no where to go and nothing to worry about.

buddist monks relax their minds and escape the world with meditating.
the funny thing is. is so do i. only with skateboarding.

no one will understand this, and i dont expect them too. just know that when you notice me not listening to you. its becuase im listening to something else. the sweet wonders of this world. it helps your appritiate life. i feel bad for you because you dont experience what i do
its not your fault. or maybe it is.
but either way... well its a brand new day everyday. maybe we will meet up someday. maybe not. all i know is that i have a life to live. or a life to shred.

its 9:15 pm the sun went down. tomorrow is another day. meet back here? alright bro.


later.



i love you skateboarding. thank you for saving me from this world.
-love always nick.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

sneaking vultures into history

give up your army. we're falling to the hands of destruction.
your eyes made it clear, that we aren't going to win tonight.
so surrender your thoughts to the books with your name on them.
burn your paper backs, the devils are here.

the tv left a static in a cry for protection, but we smashed all buildings that held the fortress. time is failing. and i felt too much like a rock, hiding from our generation. mankind will find us, they always do. all hiding spots are taken, there is nowhere to run. drown your thoughts into misery, give up your ghost. you have nowhere to run.